(Un)Necessary

Ok, so their are many things that I have interest in. Arts. Entertainment. Learning. Some are normal and some are unusual, but truthfully not much is free these days and that limits things a bit. Even then I realize how much money I've dumped into junk I would one day come to throw out. Deep down I don't like the idea of me being the average consumer. Always getting something new to replace the old something, irregardless of how much I will actually use it. Justifying expences because I "might" need it, or it "would be much easier to buy the updated version to save time", like a few seconds of work is worth it to most people. Like their is nothing better to do with my "hard earned" money. That mini-rant out of the way, I will mention 2 exeptions in my little world. My car, and my computer. (Topic was brought up on account of two recent occurances.)

First occurance - I live logged on. I work and play at a machine. Though some of you may think that is sad I assure you I am not sad. (IOW, I also live a "normal" life away from my computers. =] ) But because they are so important to me I need to at least keep up with the general movement of technology. I'm not talking about getting gadgets to show off my coolness. I mean I need computer hardware to keep up with me, a surpriseingly difficult job. Anyway, A friend of mine just went all out and bought a new machine, or peices of a new machine which he then put together. At the thought of its nifftyness I was torn. I don't care a bit that my machine is a not better than the next guy. I just wanted to Mod my machine for some time now and hearing all about his machine (with its lights and tubes and case) got me excited. It is sooooo unnecessary. It works just fine as it is right now.

Second occurance - I love my car. Not like crazy kind of love where I need to wax it a lot and park sideways in parking lots to avoid getting clipped. I just mean I spend a lot of time in my car and I love open road with the right music. (Have since I learned to drive.) So I bought a nice 8" bass tube online and then mounted it in the trunk. Having no prior experiance I was unaware one needs an amp to really get power to such a device. So now to get it working correctly I would have to buy an amp, then have it installed. Bah! Again, another waste of money as it works well enough. Though underpowered it is noticable and that is enough for me.

I wish I didn't want so much "stuff". The type of junk that a person loses money to with no real value returned. When their are so many other things (worthy causes) around. Some would say we all have a weakness that we play to and becasue everyone has one that justifies it's existance. I'd like to think I know better than that. I know the differance between real fulfillment and the temporary happiness "stuff" brings. Now if I could just keep my mind from wandering from that understanding. Maybe I could prove to be that much more usefull with this borrowed time. Something else to be mindful of...