Sickly

I’m sick.

No big surprise right, everyone gets sick. It’s nothing bad just a small sinus infection or bout with flu. The real danger for me is the aftermath when the sinuses are draining away as I sleep filling and my lungs with their icky yuckiness. That’s when Mr. Bronchitis comes. I don’t like that guy. We never get along well. Mr. Bronchitis is an old acquaintance from my childhood. Whenever I would get sick it would drain into my lungs and then we would hang out for a week or so. It used to require drugs to fix but I got tired of that so the past few times he showed up I have fought it without. Taking Nyquil and cough-drops, breathing steam, coughing up crap, and using the inhaler for a week. Letting my body fight the good fight. It’s not as easy I guess as getting a prescription from the Doc but that’s fine with me. The easy route is popular but not always necessary. (I do keep an eye on it so no need to panic.) If I get that sick I’ll call and go in for meds. There’s only been one time in my life (since I have been “in charge” of myself) that I underestimated things and thankfully someone was there when I went down. For now the waking coma that is Nyquil/Dayquil will be enough for me. It’s almost funny waking up to a night of Nyquil sleep. Everything is slow for a while and I have a hard time ending dreams. This morning I was standing in the shower talking to myself about something that was as random as a dream would be. Apparently leftover uncollected thoughts from the night before. No idea what the thoughts were though. They disappeared as I woke up the rest of the way.

So, I believe that when you struggle through something (physical, emotional, or other) and clear it you become stronger from that experience. To clarify that thought a bit I am not saying that I am less susceptible to another bout of flu or that I think I can’t be beaten by such illnesses. I’m just saying as a general rule hardships and perseverance build character and strength in people. The hardest things in my life have been some of the best things in my life. Relationships, Personal Demons, Spiritual Maturity…these things are worth hitting head on. Just remember to hit them with a will to see it through and a mentality that knows it doesn’t have the end answer. Difficult requirements for a difficult job.

Anyway, I’m at work right now on a Monday, half doped up. I will be leaving at lunch time. Shouldn’t have even come in today. Too late for that now. Tonight I wanted to finish the last 9 questions in this course but I don’t know if I’ll have the stamina for it. Was supposed to do it Friday but I spent the night finishing the X-Men Legends game (which was awesome) and then on Saturday I was going to finish it but spent the whole day watching the GitS:SAC anime series (26 episodes) that came Friday. Sheesh… If it weren’t such a nice weekend overall I would call it a waste in lue of the questions that remain un-finished.