Well, not all went as planned this extra long weekend, but it was overall productive. I got plenty of time in on writing and web-stuffs. I get more than enough sleep and today I spent nearly 4 hours cleaning at full speed. The apartment hasn't been so clean since it's first year I think and theirs still a few things I have to do before I'm done. Still it was great to take the time to organize and clean so that I could remove some of the clutter I accumulated over the years. Oversized mirrors, extra cushion and pillows, scrap wood, paperwork, appliances, and various knickknacks. I am of course a packrat so I keep anything that I can imagine using later on. This is a trait made far more impacting because of all the hobbies and projects I put my hands in. Maybe if I only have one hobby I would only have been collecting for that hobby, but instead I have enough to start my own yard sale. Maybe if I had my own yard it would be a thought. (^_^)
Instead I simply through it all out. All but a few things I new I could give to someone I know that is. Now, you could call it spring cleaning in late summer if you like, but that wasn't the point. The goal was not actually to clean as much as it was to cut some of the fat, the excess weight, off of my life. Ideally I know what I need and do not need. I need food and water. I need shelter from certain weather things. I need my health. However, after having lived with far more than these few necessary things it is not so simple to let go of my "stuff". True my apartment has never been so empty and I am pleased with the loss incurred today, but I cannot help but feel their is much more that can be let go of.
Of course I'm no fool, I am not doing this for the reason of a random quote of a book I liked or the lifestyle of some person I aspire to be and yet I am doing it for both if you get my drift. The word of God does not demand that every man gives up all he has, but it does not hold its toung in saying that doing so allows a man to do more of the work, live more of the life, that he was intended for. The example that Christ and those who followed Him left for us was one of loss and servitude. These people had nothing left to give but time and energy and it is in part because they had given it away for the cause. Still, I'm embarrassed to say, these reasons (known by most Christians) aren't enough to make me seek this process. It is more of an urge and urgency to prepare and separate than it is the things I read or the wisdom of scripture. An urge to find myself less encumbered by the world around me. An urge that is not my own influence.
Lord knows (pun intended) what awaits me in the coming years, what awaits any of us for that matter, but I'm not going to pretend He isn't going to use me. I'm not going to pretend that He can't use me or that I am not worth using. In fact I have already 'been' used and have found no greater joy in life then the life I find in Christ our Savior and King.
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