A secret violation

I am next to tears tonight, wondering honestly how much more of this world I have to witness.

Having sat through the remainder of the "Secret" (a pantheistic new age belief circulating currently) I was made aware of the shear depth of the disillusionment which is vomited up into view. Granted it saves the very best for last (I say with distain and sarcasm) it is nothing more than a new age pantheistic (god is everything because god it energy and everything is energy, theirfore you and the rock next to you are god.) belief. A hodge podge of pseudoscience (essentially fake-science) and a spiritual attempt to gather people under a form of unity through promises of many things.

Is this why I am wounded? Not exactly. What breaks me down is that tonight, as a family (spiritualy divided) gets together it was inevitable that the topic would come up. It is also inevitable that some would take to it's offers, as flies to poo. What was not expected is that certain persons within my family who are Christ-followers would also take to it. Granted these two were not the most weary of false promises, I had been prepared to stand against the opposite camp...not my own camp as well! To make matters so very much worse it was the patriarch of the family and his wife that were unable to discern the truth from the lie and so they pushed it more than its original advocates. By this point (utterly disgusted) I was only able to go to war, not a fruitful discussion, and so I sat listening and waiting and pretending to read my school book.

To top it all off not one person asked me what I thought (nearly the only one not asked) and so to bring it up would have been done so in a strictly offensive stance. While that might have still been the right thing to do their were a series of factors in play that made me think otherwise. Including the celebration of the Secrets original advocates birthday. The only solace I take from the night is that I was able to face it with tears and not fists (metaphorical and otherwise), a rarity for me on such a topic.

So while I pray tonight that the spirit move in me and my family I will also be praying for the redemption and correction of those few we might lose to the deceiver. Two elders and possibly a young girl who cares greatly for what they belive.

I know I'm young, but in moments like these I only want to go home. That He hasn't taken me yet only means their is more in store. So be it I suppose, but I'm weary of this violation. My bags are packed so to speak.