Built to break

I'm bored and I don't want to do the work that I have. So what then shall I do? How's about a post, why not! =P But what to post on...what indeed. So many thoughts are rushing around in my head you'd think I could just grab hold of one and go with it, but no it doesn't work that way.

How about this one. Recently, I have come under criticism because I, like many others, put stock in feelings and to some level I put trust in these feelings. Not emotion type feeling exactly, but something deeper. Some type of connection that has always existed, but leaves few traces to track to a source. From my dealings I have traced this source first to creation and then to God. I know for certain I am not the only one as many people throughout the years have shared this gift to varying degrees, some well past mine. So in recent conversations with some interesting acquaintances I have taken a beating for utilizing and leaning on this connection. These people do not seem to understand it and consequently I doubt share in it. They value thought over feeling and that is fine with me, to each his own as they say, but such a policy is not what they would follow. Instead some, at first sign, assemble an assault against the trust of feelings or the existence of more than what they see. No harsh words have been spoken mind you, but none the less a struggle is a struggle no matter what realm it exists on.

One on one it has been a blow for blow approach, back and forth with control and a measure of compassion, but this recent event pits the odds a bit more lopsided. And so even in good times this is a heavy battle. For the most part it is only a heavy battle in that they do not wish to consider the concepts I am lead to put forth there. Instead they read through my words and pick their targets, then mount an assault. Each one backing or covering the approach of the next if the opportunity arrises. If this were a BF2 match I'd commend them for teamwork, but it is not a game. The problem is that at some point I have to put an end to it because I don't think they will get tired and in truth my point has already been made more than once. I don't like the idea of leaving this hanging though. It feels wrong to walk away, but the problem is a simple matter of refusal to believe. (Heh, that's a statement that carries farther than intended.)

Anyway, I don't know about your experiences, but trying to convince someone who is focused on the mind of the hearts worth is so very hard. So much so that, for me, I need to leave it to God to handle His affairs. Yea, that is the idea all along, but I get very wrapped up in the explanation and desire to help with understanding. Ok, well that killed a few minutes, should be time to go home soon and check back on the conversation again. It's going to be a long night.