Inspiration comes in bricks and bullets

Clartiy. An awesome mystery to those who know it doesn't belong to them and a fleeting fragrance in the breeze to those who think they have it. Their is a point in everyones life I suppose when they think it makes sence. When things come together or unravel into bite size pieces that we can swallow. When I look back I can remember not thinking that everything made sence as a whole but that everything on its own and in its time made sence. Issues of right and wrong, issues of man and nature, and issues of why and why not. I didn't know everything, and despite popular opinion never claimed to, but at the same time answers came redily and were no to often a surprise.

To get to the point a bit, I have had some clarity recently. What's the difference between coming to a state of understanding and having a moment of inspiration. To me it is the source from which the information and revelation comes from. Their is a very noticable difference between digging up answers by googling or reading an article verses sitting somwhere (not focusing on anything) and having the answer hit you like brick was thrown at your head. An even better sign of inspiration in my opinion is when you can have spent years considering a topic and become well versed in it, then one day out of nowhere comes a spark of revelation on the matter. Much like looking at your shinny new car in the driveway under a consistantly overcast sky and then (without your doing) the clouds break. Suddenly the car you thought was so shinny and great is basking in light that is not in your control, but shines for your better viewing regardless. Sonlight falling down on the old topic making it more vivid and more complete. Making it an inspired view. Granting understanding beyond what's in our ability.

It happend to me recently again, but this time is held a little more (O_o) than usual. Someone said something to me and, though it was apparent, it became much clearer in that moment and the moments to follow. It had only been a short time since I had been inspired, but this time it was not about scripture, about a world issue, or someones problems. This time it was about me. Though most revelations regardless of the toipc will apply to the revelee this one was aimed with the accuracy of a heavenly sniper and the bullet had my name all over it. I have a purpose and I know about it now. I feel like I snuck a peak at the upcoming test. Not like I know everything about it of course, but enough to have direction and (thankfully) some validity to the process that had been and are still is taking place around me.

I know many people who have read "A purpose driven life." I am proud of those who do. It shows a willingness and a hopefull curiosity that is both good in life and great as a Christian. The book, which has helped countless people discern their callings or at least their best usable attributes, is one of the better tools we have in stock today. But I'm difficult, or so I'm told (^_^) and I have not read it. Why? I look back over the ages and see countless inspired men and women. Inspired by a direct calling and direct line of comunication with the God we follow (A topic I am very interested in.). Developing to spiritual maturity and being handed a purpose through patients, trials, prayer, and a heart that longs. It has been said, though I can't remember by whom, that those who seek will find. Wether this was Gods word or not it is still true. I have many gifts and I'm sure they should all be put to use in service if possible but I thank God for shedding light on this purpose above the others. "What is it?" "Pshh! Not telling!" For the time being it is to much like a child to a new puppy. I'm too excited to let go. I refuse to stop squeezing it. *hugs* I'm excited for the future more now than yesterday. Which is the reason for the topic. To let you know that I have gained something such as this and where it came from. As well as to make a pointless comment on the difference between inspiration and compreshension. Not that the statements are as true to everyone as they are to me, but simply that they are true to me.