Not so bad...

Maybe you've noticed from the last few posts that I have been struggling and a bit frustrated lately. It's true. I've been butting heads with a lot of heavy thoughts lately as well as running the ridgeline of change. I just wanted to mention that things are as they should be despite all the trouble I have (and haven't) been posting about. Though at times I have so much I want to post I don't like having to say later "I don't feel/think that anymore" so for that reason I tend to keep those posts to myself. Change is beating down my door.

Some quick stops before I game tonight;
-I am not a fan of John Warwick. Though he is a highly educated man and has much to say that is important to hear, something (which is visible and clear) turns my stomach when he writes. He is the "required reading" for this course and of the two books I must read, one is writen well over my head, the other seems to take the misconseptions of others and then base a further misconception on it. I will of course read them both as it is required of me and I will attempt to stay open to the fragments of truth, but may return for a Blog Rant session.

-I am a fan of John Davis. He is the main course study and though hard to follow at times does a wonderful job of getting to the heart of the scripture. The difficulties come from the very frequent and sudden use of external references, names of other researchers, dates of various things, and multiple translations of the original text throughout the course of the book.

-Also, I finished the 18+ hours of audio lecture today. I want to listen to it again in the coming week as I know I have already lost or missed so much of what was said. I was like a baseball player in a hail storm. Trying to catch as much as I could but clearly missing things all around. The cool part is I have everything on audio CDs as well as the transcripts so I can co back anytime. Which is good casue I plan on doing all the tests and essays tomorrow which I'm currently thrilled about. (No, seriously...I am.)

-Lastly, I have had two study group sessions since the earlier post and things are going better, but I believe this will take time. Since paying attention to such matters recently it has become apparent that God will have to do much refining for me to get where I believe He wants me. Not to mention where I will be less at odds with myself. The trick will be to stay focused and to take the struggle in stride, but I trust it will get done to His satisfation and perpose eventually.